Sa Rang Hae~

Dearest..this is who we are when we are exhausted...

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Seraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaabutttt!!!Kepalaa ku berserabut umpama dekstop ku.....!!!!!!!!peningsssss bangat!!!sigh :(

a lil bit about you~

People~...say hye to elly...

She is one of my colleagues in IBM..but she is more than just a colleague to me..We've been friends for only 5 month but we go throught lots of things togather.

When i 1st met her..herm letme flash back.dia ni nampak diam jer.buat kerja sendri.tak pandang kiri kanan..but once we got to know each other..pergh boleh roboh apcc tuh.

There is something about her that i cant describe with words..selain daripada seorang joker,she's like a sister to me jugaks..she make me realize that the only way i could be happy again is by going back to "HIM"..n slowly she guided me there..

she's an angel..n im so thankful to have her around..

I know i know..im surrounded by lots of angels around me..who?you people lah...yeappss you!

Unfortunately nothing is this world last forever right?Im gonna miss her..just hope that our friendship just wont end here..:(

Thats it for tonight~

Gua mArah ni!!

Pergh...panas betol hati bile tgk payslip bulan ni.

Slamber tak mencecah target langsung.Ini buat aku takde mood nak kerja ni.Kerja pepenat sampai masuk hospital slamber salah kire gaji!!

emo emo emooo....sambil kipas kipass walaupon ofisss sejuk nak mati!

gua sudah panas hati maka go to hell dgn semua kerja...

iskkkk takbleh blah..aku rase nak g cekik jer accounts yg kire gaji ni!!!now i know nape rai dulu emo gile.

panassss panassssssssssssss betol hati !!!!

Luncheon

Hep hep people..

Saya.. very sleepy tapi wanna update lil'bit..

Evrything that happen now is making sense..

Evryday there will be a suprise for me..i will elaborate that further..tapi tatau bile.:(

Anyhoo...we had our team lunch today..its gonna be our last team lunch.wanna know why?I bet some of you is already aware on what's happening to me..tapi takperla..once my closing ends..i will definately update y'all.

First thing first..diana mesti berposing...dengan cupcake pon jadila..



Ini Cupcakesnya..we will have this evry month..tapi with diff diff corak..sungguh manis cupcake ni...

This is the Miss Manager...~

Ni plaks..my colleague..jiha.Kamila geng attack cake dulu baru mkn lunch lain..setiap bulan kiteorang akan rasmikan cake n cupcakes dahulu...:P

Kesimpulanya..im gonna miss this moment :(

Gnite people..will write more later~

Ngantuksssssss

Nak buat kerja...mantuksssssssssss

Nak bercerita...........mantuksssssssss

Nak tulis blog...........mantuksssssssssssssss..

Nak kuar beli cokelat.................mantuksssssssssss

Nak tdoooooooooo......maaaaaaantukkkkkkkks..ekekek

Tahniah kepada cuace yg hujan sepanjang hari..

They won~

And sooo....they won!!expected..ngee:D

puas hati...kalau dapat pegi lagi puas hati.Tapi tak dapat pegi pon sgt puas hati coz tgk dekat rumah pon dah cukup penat and sleepy.

And so alifa told me rupanye mimi "one nation emcees" adik katok rupenye.I remember he used to tell me dia ader adikprempuan..but never imagine he had one who could dance that well..hee:D

Anyhoo...akasia Sux!I wonder why ajai n that syed haikal keep on giving them 5 stars.watever..

My second fave was 3.5 ..i like when they sang high pitch songs...

Dahla tuh comment for tonight..wish me luck for tomorrow.Have a good monday people..

nitesss~

Justification

N now i've learn things happen for a reason.Even tho the reason is not very clear to me..but i believe he (the almighty) knows best.

Yap last friday i was tested.I was misearable the wholde day.Given a dream that woke me up crying like a baby trying to push away the picture of mistake i have done the night before that i myself did not realize it.

The dream i had turns out to be nothing but the truth.It was a miracle..he gave me a clear picture when i was sleeping.

What i did wrong was..

• Previously i had an issue where i had issued 16 invoices to a wrong customer.
• I had to raise an ABA (its a billing adjustment to correct the invoice,Once u raised an ABA it will effect ur accuracy and performance level.)
• It turns out that the invoice i re-issued is also having a problem with the format.So i had to void them (Void is the term we use to hold an invoice before it interfaced to the system during midnight or else I will need to raise another ABA.which is a disaster.)

Having said that...scariest thing happened..thats when i get the dream on friday morning.

I dream of not voiding the invoices and turn out to be true..what i did was only filling in the void form but i did not void the invoices through the system.

I woke abruptly from the dream..walking back n forth trying to figure was it just a dream or it did really happen.I immediately grab my thinkpad and try to check through the system.To make things worst..the system schedule to be down for maintanance till 4pm on that friday.

Can u people imagine how misearable i was that day...to get an approval for voiding the 16 invoices is scary enough for me..and the need to raise another billing adjustment on top a billing adjustment was ridiculous...besides, previous entry yg mase i nanges masuk toilet lepas kne marah ngan miss manager was about this.

I know this is too technical for u people..but this is what happen.problem doest only stop there..but yeah..ini yg paling major plus issue with miss manager.

Will write bout miss manager later..till then.thxs for reading :)

DEEsaster

Yesterday, i thought i screwed up enough..and today the worst thing had happened.

Im still at home wearing a towel while blogging.What is the worst thing could happen kan belom pon sampai office...yeap but it did happen.

There is something wrong with me lately..or maybe with my fate.Things keep on falling apert.One by one it happen without even giving me a chance to sit and think bout it.The more i want it to be the right thing to do..it will definately turn out to be the worst nigghtmare i could dream of happening to me.

Im trying to figure out..what have i done wrong?what did i do get this kinda punishment...

Missmanager is not supporting me at all..why did i say that?i'll explain later.Now i really have to get going....facing nothing but the biggest disaster i have done.

But i'm wondering..why didnt i think of quitting?why am i still there.I believe i can improve.Like mira said i have option.But what makes me wanna stay???i dont know...

Bullshit!

Kau sgt tak fair.and u expect me to respect you.Dream on motherfucker!

Tidak Keruan

Seperti tajuk di atas..all i can i say..saya tidak keruan.lepas kne marah ngan miss manager and perasaan itu sgt disturbing.

cum biasa berlari ker toilet mengkaver air mata..dan balik kembali ke depan thinkpad macam takde pape berlaku.

since i have tons of work to do..better get going.will cont.@ home..

till then~

Membebel

eeee..buhsan bila la dia nak notice aku nni..eeeeeeeee.erkk demn u mamat comel Facebook.demn u jugak sebab name dia H****.Dah add pastuh dok dediam watpe.

erk ad msg tadi..kucing kesayangan dia LILY da Giant Cat sudah mati siang tadi.adeh sedehnye.si ad gile ni boleh balik from melaka petang tadi and planning to go back home to melaka pagi esok..isk iskk..tak suprise la if anak beranak kluager zainal rashid tu mmg sayang giler kat kucing.Neway ad Takziah~sian ur mom sure dia sedeh giler.si lily tuh mati sebab sakit tua..umor dia dah 16 tahun..isk iskk.panjang juge umurnye.

a moment of silent dedicated to Lily~

One Step at a time...

you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you getting all kinda impatient
Waiting, we live and we learn

You believe, and you doubt
You're confused, and got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

Take one step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly, or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen
And we find the reasons why
One step at a time

When you can't wait any longer ..
But there's no end in time...
It's your faith that makes you stronger....
The only way we get there...
Is one step at a time

A motivational lyrics i would say..

Something to share..

Saya sedang...

yer..menunggu si katak ini..u mesti tak prasan i melakukan kegiatan ini kan..:P boleh tahan sengal ok tunggu u

hermm..besides that..i miss budak ini..

Bila tah nak g jumpe..

Surveys

1. I hate
:: wannabe's

2. I am listening..
:: to my mp3s

3. Maybe I should
:: get a life

4. I love
:: to complain

5. I don't understand
::why life must be so much drama

6. I have lost my respect for
:: that someone who i used to care for

7. I last ate
:: i drank caramel frappe..ate..erm x ingat.

IS YOUR/ARE YOU:

1. Is your hair wet?
:: nope

2. Is your cellphone right by you?
:: nope..on the table

3. Do you miss someone?
:: nomore someone..but i miss my cheeky nephew
danial

4. Are you wearing chopstick?
:: at this point of time..?nahh

5. Are you tired?
::tired of being alone..since small

6. Are you wearing pajamas?
: nope

7. Are you mad?
:: erkk..as in angry or crazy?

8. Are you upset?
::why should i?

.TODAY HAVE YOU:

1. Cursed?
:: mungkin ada

2. Gotten mad at someone?
:: yah..again at a lorry driver..f* lorry drivers!!there goes my curse

RANDOM:
Q: Is there a person who is on yourmind right now?
:: no one in particular..

Q: Do you want children?
:: yes..i really do

Q: Do you smile often?
:: herm..i dont know

Q: Do you like your handwriting?
:: not anymore

Q: Are your toenails painted?
:: if only u can have a look at my toenails..u will figure..

Q: What were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
:: still working

Farewell~

I have lots of things to write..but end up everynight terus tdo..:(

Neway..today we had our lunch farewell for Janice.Dia sgt comel ok..and will u believe me if i say she is much older then me?much much more older..she is so small and petite and comel..see that comel word again.

saying goodbye was hard..she had help me alot .I remember during my 1st month doing closing by myself..kalau tak sebab dia I confirm x close successfully.We used to share workstation.That is when we became close and i enjoyed looking at her grumbling in front of her monitor..suke sgt ckp sesorang..dia kalau marah pon comel jer..kalau dia jalan pon mcm dia tgh skipping..sgtla comel.ehee:D

So today we had our lunch in Pizza Hut..there was 16 of us tadi...To tell u the truth this is the 1st time we had our lunch togather as a team..

Kalau korang nak tau..gamba bawah ni la team sbenar saya..This the billing team.Tidak termasuk team lain yg dibawah satu manager ituh.

Kami ni mcm team yg di anak tirikan skit..so we do things by ourself..sedeh ek..:P Mase plan farewell pon tak invite manager..:P naseb baik dia cuti harinie.xderla rase bersalah sgt.

We had our lunch for two hours...siap rasa macam dah hari jumaat dah..:P

Actually most of my teamates is chinease.Chinease gurls.Derang ni ramai lagi yg i tak kenal sgt.Name pon i tak pasti sgt..adeh sedeh.Coz they are so quiet and so into their work.Tapi when we had our lunch togather..i rase best sgt..peramah jugak ceciner ni.Yang terharu tu..derang siap ckp..we should have this kind of outing more often..wah saya ni kan sensitive tak tentu pasal..rase cum sweet giler..:))

but how long will i survive working here..?only god knows~

Till later~nite

My laughter~

Ini kawan saya...nama mereka salambah ngan joys (bukan nama sbenar) adoi nak cite memcm tapi sgtla mengantuk..

zZzZZZzz Gnite

Hari Pertama

huhuuu...skarang ni 5.30 pagi.

Sbenarnye aku cuak lalu terjaga dari tdo pukul 4 tadi and bangun wat kerja..sgtla loser.

Smalam 1st day g kerja hati sgt tidak keruan..wahbahser! tapi sgt tak porductive smalam..lembab gile buat kerja.siap pening kepala tgk semua request..sigh~I know this is coming..ingat sesenang jer leh cuti 2 minggu tanpa sebarang balasan lepas tuh..haih haihh

Neway saya sgt terharu dgn my colleagues this morning..wah semua pon mcm ceria jer bila aku balik..poyo ajer.We end up having lunch togather reramai..slame ni pon tak penah lunch in one group..tetibe plaks semua ajak lunch.sesi bergurau senda pon dah start..mizi ckp sejak me takde semua sunyi...ely jadi kera sumbang tanak campur org...junk food pon tiada.

Ely ckp ..ko dah balik nyet..baru aku rasa lapar..:)) haih prempuan tuh kerja kuat sgt..takut dia plaks yg masuk hospital lepas ni.But she got her rewards...ape rewards tuh?kami pon masih belom tau...4rm what we heard bfore rewards yg derang bagi slalunye cash wooo...in USD somemore..waduh kool habes..

dahla gtg...nak siapkan kerja skit lagi..daa~

ONE for all....

ONE NATION emcees...

they r going to finals!woot woot...

me ajak alifa pegi Gengstarz final nanti..tapi takut dia on duty plaks.Alifa offered to get me da tics...tapi since tv3 tuh sbelah my office jer..tics can be collected at the postguard jer nanti.tapi tuhla..cum takbest plaks kalo alifa tak gih...

anyway..esok kerja...hish malas sungguh..

i better get going..preparing for tomorrow.gnite people~

Drama..Double Sigh~

Sigh...

Ouch....

Heart Break into pieces~

Herm..si bijak neo went from sakit to injured badly.My bad.Screw that F TNB lorry ..Now the passanger door siap takley tutup..:(( waaaaaaaaa...

Those who wish to have more drama in ur daily life...pls think over again on whatever ur'e wishing for...:P

Susahnye saying "TAKNAK"

Susahnye saying TAKNAK!!

im STRUGGLING..BATTLING..PRAYING and HOPING i can say TAKNAK

However...urghhh its KILLING ME!!

Coz everyday im CRAVING.....n WISHING ...n DREAMING.... and CREATING wild ideas in order for me to get at least a Puff of it before i finally realise that i have regretted it again...geezzzzzz

Movies Review

I love to watch malaysian movies..ha im having fun watching em' ok...x percaya?

U guys should seat back and relax..take ur time and support malaysian movies as well.Mmg some of it is total bullshit..but hey who else will support our industry if not the malaysian people itself kan..

Letme review 2 movies i've watched.Dedua pon is recomended to u people!!

APA KATA HATI

"Apa Kata Hati" is about Elly, a young fashion designer who works at Boutique Karya Anggun.

Elly is a hopeless romantic just one step away from being proposed by her one true love. Finding herself one day with a special gift, she finds out more than she bargains for. She sees this as a curse when she hears more negative things rather than positive.With all these mixed emotions she finally decides to follow her heart.

This filem is similiar to What women wants starring Mel Gibson dulu.However filem ni cume tebalik jer..instead lelaki yg dgr aper prempuan nak..ni prempuan plaks yg dengar apa lelaki fikir.Apa kata hati takdela Wow sgt...but its fun to watch and so much better than SALON by Raja Farah back then.

DUYUNG

"Duyung" tells of social misfit Jimmy , who is a loner in his village. However, he is a kind soul who cares for the environment and does things like clearing rubbish. Jimmy also believes that his reward would be to meet a mermaid , as the fable goes. However champion fisherman Kordi pokes fun at his beliefs and also his dreams to get together with village beauty Aspalela . However, the appearance of a mermaid in the village surprises the villagers and may play a key role in changing their lives.



Herm this movie is highly recomended as the sceneeeeee is soooooooo soooo demn beautiful!jalan cerita yg tak merepek,menarik,masuk akal,funny,effect menarik and did i mentioned dis already?sceneeeeeee diaaa superb!For those who love to live in dreams n fantasy world like i do..then u wont regret it....pegi beli cepat!

Well ..i admit,there is whole lot of improvement need to be done to the industries...specially movies from professor razak tuh...yg ituh mmg saya bangkang habes habesan..but yg lain tuh i guess they deserve a chance for their movie to be watch..:D

Sakit sakit season

Tuan sakit..kreta pon sakit..

Herm nampaknye skarang mmg musim sakit sakit.Something is wrong with si BIJAK.gotta bring her to Proton esok.I noticed it was not smooth as before and the engine light is on again.It did happened once..ingatkan i tak warm up engine.Luckily i was with both mama n daddy tadi.barula derang percaya.Kalau tak tuh spuloh kali ckp pon tak percaya.

So i guess its time to rawat si bijak puler.

Setiap masa kne makan ubat banyak ni...to tell u the truth saya sudah tidak larat.

While blogging ni ..sham tefon.Nak dijadikan cerita sham pon was admitted to ICU last week.He fall from the bike last sunday mase tgh main basikal naik bukit semua.Dia koma and hilang ingatan kejap.Alhamdulillah everything is ok.Naseb baik takde paper..dia kata dia tatau mcm mana boleh jatuh mase ride tuh...n jatuh kepala dulu.

Sham and his brothers mmg active naik mountain bike ni.Now he manage his father's business on bicycle parts .So on weekends dia akan join customer dia bersukan.

Nampaknye mmg skarang musim sakit sakit.Mengikut kajian..mungkin sebab skarang cuace sgt panas akibat perubahan angin monsun.so friends..sila jaga kesihatan kamu semua..

Till then~

Dear life

Ku ingin berjalan ..namun tiada hala tuju,

Ku ingin menulis..namun tiada cerita,

Mahu berkongsi ..agar diriku lebih ceria..hmph~

Lately, life is so challenging. I have tried..

I tried my very best to keep my self organized..

I tried to prove to the others that im capable ...

I tried to put myself together..

I tried to focus..

I tried....

However...

It seems everything just fall apart..

I stumbled..

and I fall..

I failed...

I almost lost faith..

Sigh~

its so painful

Im in so much pain...

too painful that i cant bare it anymore..

im shivering..

i lost my way..

im ill..both mental and physical...

i dont really know what im doing anymore..

and i dont know if i want to choose the wrong or the correct path..

i dont know whether i want to hurt myself more or to ...i dont know~

im in so much pain...

im scared..

im scared if god take me away tonite and wont give me a chance anymore..

im so scared ...and its sooo painful