Promises broken and plans cancelled

hmpph above is who i am today..

disebabkan kerja aku jadi begini..to many promises being broken and i have no heart to make plans with people. all the time i'll be in the office or will be around my dearest colleagues aja..

This morning i woke up feeling so tired..weh.as if i've worked for the whole week dy...instead baru 3 hari berkerja..but the reality, i've been working for 1 month straight without a break.saturdays and sundays included..cheih..not forgetting during my mc's as well.

Too many things happened. I’ve decided to tender my resignation this coming 28th lepas gaji..things got all screwed and my decision was final. I’ve planned to work in HSBC AGAIN!! serena agreed to help me.I've even planned to get the accounts screwed before i leave the company supaya gua puas hati !!!dapat delete 500k punyer billing pon gua dah puas hati ...

..........suddenly!REALITY HIT me hard on the forehead!!Yan told us her hubby was asked to leave to company.ON THE SPOT OK!! Kne retrenched...head counts dlm company was reduced untill 15 org jer...gile babi keji.all around,paper and news is screaming about down sizing companies and reducing manpower..PANG gua terdiam lalu berfikir.

Things might be so fucked up in the office..my contract might not be renewed due to that fucking issue they blame me on...I may cry everyday in the office facing all the fuckers...but no one's gonna pay me this much at this point of time.even tho its not worth it dgn tahap balaci nye kami berkerja..tapi aku mampu membayar hutang piutang ku yg tingginya mengalahkan gunung everest itu.

Not a single day being spend without thinking how much longer will i survive there..But there were no choice given to me...dgn parents yg tidak berkerja..aku bukanlah anak tunggal yg kisah hidupnye indah seperti fairy tales...

arghh aku sentiasa merindui zaman belaja dimana hidup tidak sesusah zaman aku berkerja...:(

So what if im a cry baby even tho im now 24 years of age

I feel like crying out loud..

but even crying wouldnt help..

i have to complete the task before tomorrow..tapii tapiiii...saya demam.saya jatuh sakit dan shiver mcm org parkinson.

saya sejuk tapi saya panas...
saya sejuk tapi badan saya macam teko air yg sedang masak di atas dapur..

i dont wanna dissapoint my boss but i couldnt go on anymore..:(( sedehlaa

nowadays i noticed..weekend jer sure demam...org mungkin ingat saya bohong..now saya rasa mcm org tua yg sakit sakit sendi..:((

Kasut Orang Bulan

Crocs day out..feat me yan & amir.

Crocs warehouse sale..today is our second trip to kepong utk memborong crocs.Macam mana Tahap dewa pon ke'Busy'an di office..trip ke warehouse sale tak pernah skali gagal.



During lunch..me mizi yan & hubby gamble g kepong utk checkout croc's sale.In an hour they managed to grab like 10 pairs of Crocs.Earlier,bro khalif grab himself 5 pairs..tapi dia dah g dulu tinggalkan kiteorg.since sume keje melambak..sape cepat dia g dulu...

I tak fancy sgt Crocs ni..tapi adela jugak satu kan..skadar mengikut trend semasa..:P lagipon comfy juge..

Me and yan decided for a second trip..and so we brought amir along.He actually waited for us la kat sane.prempuan mane penah on time.Macam di jangka harini lagi super gampang ramai org.Malaysian and sale..mmg normal begini.So kami tetap melakukan penipuan yg sgt keji utk cut the line and masuk tanpa segan silu..(blardy malaysian..ekeke)

above ..Croc's yg dipesan oleh my colleague -Kak arni for her kids n hubby.

Seriously for mens and kiddos mmg puas hatila kalo shopping kat sini..but for women..buhsan skit..mary jane sume takde..so me and yan having fun grabbing shoes for people jerh..oh ya lupe..harga 50% off okeh!superbb 60 bucks per Crocs!

herm..one more day to go for those of you who r interested.

and now back to business..currently ,im struggling to clean up my closet ..yeah the closet where i hid my skeleton for 8 months now..the one which has been peeking thru the door all this time waiting to be discovered!yup..hes out...and im in SUPER BIG trouble.

SIGH~

Have abreak havee a kit kat

oMMMMMMggg!!aAronn Aziz ok!!

fucking macho and hem semmmm oo keh! aagagaga

yeap im taking a break mau tonton sehati berdansa..will continue blogging later.

daa~

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha...

Good mornng people..

Selamat Hari Raya to all...

Im so excited as always sebab nak g tgk lembu korban..but now still kat rumah.

im sure rumah nenek lambat lagi nak sembelih tu..kat sane mesti berpuluh puluh ekor.Unfortunately tahun ni i tak sempat buat korban.Dah tutup plaks...some miss-communication between mama n maklong akhirnye i tak dpt amik bahagian..its ok.will do it next year..

anyho..below is the view from my room org tgh sembelih lembu..dah lembu ker 4 dah.mama siap panjat krusi nak intai from tingkap..

aaaaaaaa nak g rumah nenek dah..

till then...byeee

Sleeping with Stars!

Geezz...i love my room!!no words can describe..

Few weeks of hectic life..then i've decide to pampered myself with some shopping to decorate my room...nahh not actually decorate,i just need something to divert my boring and dull and kusam life to something yg lebeh hermmm ceria...even tho i'm enjoying it alone..but still saya puas hati...

It felt so peaceful..i love spending time alone doing nothing..probably bcoz im the only child and im sooo used to be alone...no biggy deal.

i remember i used to decorated my room with glow in the dark punyer stars.but that time semua stars warna kuning and hijau...siap ade bentuk planet planet.those were the days where all the pin ups of devon sawa penuh dekat dinding...not forgetting nsync and bsb..hik hikhik..but those were the daysla kan..tak mungkin kot i akan tampal pin ups lagi zaman skarang..lagi pon nak tampal pin ups aper jer now?jonas brothers?ahahahah

anyway,i dont have to wish upon a falling stars now..coz i have them in my room..tak kirala,even tho its fake..but im loving it!!har har..saya suke alam fantasy.pls bare with me :

Isnt he lovely???

" Im so gonna get you aunty when im all grown up!! "says danial..:D

Peace and out..

Diana x paham!

I wonder..why people brag on things they dont even like...

nah.. i dont have to wonder coz i know the answer...

im not gonna tell so dont bother asking...

cube try test...

Nak cuber kuiz saffyy..

mengenal sifat dari tarikh lahir..ngeh ngeh

1. Pemimpin
2. Lembut
3. Kemas (Cerewet)
4. Rajin
5. Boleh berbincang
6. Angin
7. Patuh
8. Bisnes
9. Glamour

12/11/1984 <--birthdate

1.Saf kata kne kire jumlah hari
1+2 = 3

2.Then,sum up jumlah keseluruhan hari
1+2+1+1+1+9+8+4 = 27 ----- 2+7=9

3. Lastly add up the 1st & 2nd
2+9 = 11 -------1+ 1= 2

Sifatnye adalah :
Kemas (Cerewet) --- kemas mmg takla..cerewet saya setuju
Glamour ------ glemer tang manaaaaaaa
Lembut ------lagila tidakkkkk


No 1 = Pemimpin
Layak menjadi seorg pemimpin, namun jika visinya pemimpin tanpa disokong no 5 (boleh berunding) akan berasa sedikit gila kuasa.

No 2 = Lembut
Kita boleh lihat no 2 pd sikapnya yang lembut, namun jika no 2 pd sifat dlmn, dia mudah mengaku kalah dan terlalu lembut tanpa org lain sedar. Oleh itu, org yg memiliki no 2 pada sifat lembut harus berusaha menjadi lebih kuat dan pendirian tetap.

No 3 = Kemas/Cerewet
Cara pengurusannya amat teliti namun ada sesetengah org yg terlalu cerewet. Visinya yg kemas tanpa disokong no 4 (rajin) akan menjadi seperti biasa shj.

No 4 = RajinSikap
rajinnya amat terserlah, Visinya yang rajin mampu membuat sebarang kerja atau apa bidang sekalipun dan mampu mengeluarkan idea2 bernas lain drpd org lain.

No 5 = Boleh Berunding
Sikapnya boleh berunding dan senang berurusan dgnnya, namun dia juga dipengaruhi no-no lain pd visi dan sifat dlmn. Mampu berkomunikasi dgn org lain secara diplomasi.

No 6 = AnginSikapnya
seperti angin, jika kita tiup angin, dia akan pergi, jika kita sedut angin, dia akan dtg. Maksudnya di sini, dia tidak begitu tetap pendirian. Sesiapa yg mempunya no 6 pd visi, dinasihatkan duduklah di sebelah org yg positif kerana anda mampu menjdi seorg yg hebat drpd org yg menyokong anda dan jika duduk sebelah org negatif, hancurlah anda. <<>

No 7 = Patuh
Seorg yg sgt patuh pd sikap, kalau visinya patuh, kira bguslah boleh mendengar kata nasihat2 org dan harus dipraktikkan, namun jika sifat dlmnnya patuh, jgnlah terlalu menunduk dan menyerah kalah.

No 8 = Berniaga
Org yg mempunyai no ini mmg suka berniaga, suka tgk duit dan mampu mengembangkan harta, dll. Hati2 jika no 8 jatuh pd sikap kerana semua bisnes dia mahu ceburi tanpa focus dan menjayakan sesuatu. Visi 8 mampu bekerja keras dlm berniaga dan itulah kerjaya sebenar. Yg paling bgusnya jika sifat dlmnnya no 8 (jrg org ketahui) bhw dia mempunyai bakat dlm perniagaan.

No 9 = Glamour
Glamour di sini bermaksud berani menonjol diri, pandai berkomunikasi, pandai bergaya. Visi glamour mampu dan berani menceburi bdg2 spt penyiaran, penyanyi, peguam, dsb. Jika sifat dlmnnnya 9, jgn la terlalu branded style jika tidak disokong sikap dan visi yg tertentu.


agagagaga...sgtlaaa :))

PMS- Chocolate Craving

I ate allllllllllllllllllooooooooooooot of chocolate today..however im still craving for more.

Since last nite lagi...end up my dad went out and bought me cadbury zip.itu dah cukup untuk menidurkan aku dikala period pain yg menggila.

Tapi sampai jer office,semua bekalan junk food aku selongkar and mkn semua mknnan yang berkaitan ngan chocalate..seperti..milo nuggets,oreo,rocky,kinda bueno dan kit kat..slurpppp..aaa heavennn.

Skali tgh sebok menyumbat..terpandang kat krusi ade tompok pelik yg sgt besar..demmit.Rupenye bocor..pastuh si idura ni tgkkan kan belakang ngan terus jerit..dinoo besar gilerrr tanda tuhhh..baik ko g check!Dgn rocky masih di tangan aku pon pasrah ke toilet..

Heeeeeeeeeee....naseb baikla diri sendri yg punyer..nak bersihkan baju sendri pon leh rase nak muntah..wekk..siap bukak baju basuh & keringkan kat hand dryer lagi.Naseb baikla harini buat choice baju yg slamat..which is super dark purple baju kurung..kalau tak konfirm balik rumah on da spot.

Setelah 2 bulan period tak kuar..kali ni dia menggila plaks la...padanla mengidam mengalahkan org mengandung..demmit...END

Dreaminggggggg forrr more Chocolatessssssssss~

SAdis..

Terlalu Sadis Caramu
Menjadikan Diriku
Pelampiasan Cintamu
Agar Dia Kembali Padamu
Tanpa Perduli Sakitnya Aku

Tega Nian Nya Caramu
Menyingkirkan Diriku
Dari Percintaan Ini
Agar Dia Kembali Padamu
Tanpa Perduli Sakitnya Aku

Semoga Tuhan Membalas Semua Yang Terjadi
Kepadaku Suatu Saat Nanti
Hingga Kau Sadari Sesungguhnya Yang Kau Punya
Hanya Aku Tempatmu Kembali
Sebagai Cintamu

Hanya Aku Tempat Mu Kembali

blurbs

People are asking.."where have u been?why r u so quiet??"....and i bet they could guess the answer...

I dont feel like explaining things ..(not in the mood to talk)

im not feeling well for quite sometime now..u can read it from my previous post.Demam on and off and i have not yet fully recovered.

Workload is crazy...**Tooott** not gonna elaborate more

I spend most of my time in the office , not answering calls and text from friends.why???coz i malas to talk and make fake promises..

Usually i will act this way when i need to get rid of people tht im not comfortable with..but somehow nowdays im just to tired to talk to people.

For those who cares for me and tried to call me and did not receive any return call or text from me...i am not getting rid of u people ok...special u rai alifa dejah mira or even aliza...saya cuma agak busy..and saya sendri tak prasan yg saya tetibe senyap...ingatkan mcm xder paper and normal jer..tapi bile hampir kesemua di atas telah bertanya kan kemana saya menghilang..maka penjelasan harus diberikan :)

till later fwens...nitee..:X

dot dot dot

Im not happy ..:(

The end!

12.11.2008

Its kinda depressing celebrating my 24th Bday...why?those who celebrated their 24th years of age probably could answer this...

Howwwwwwwwwwever...Big Thank You for early wishes from all of you....

Dejah

Fairy

Hsbcnet geng

Yana

...........

Not forgetting to my dearestttttt Raie & Alifa...

Thanks for the early celebrationnnnnnn....

Aku syg kamu..siapa la aku tanpa kamu berdua.

Tidak dilupekan juge saat paling manis dan tragis mase korang nak beli tiket Twilight tuh..eheheheheh aku takkan lupekan sampai bile bile...aaaaaaaaaa sgt suweeeeeeeet..

mwahhhhhh:X

Sale sale SaLeee...

So everyone is talking about the Sony Warehouse sale kan..

wiiittwiittt.....

Managed to get myself an early bday treat...ngeee :P

Even tho its not the one i dreamt of having...but im fine with it.Ini jer yg i mampu kan for the time being...heee:D

stilll smiling from the moment i managed to get my hands on it..

Bro Khalif was the one yg menghasut kiteorg pegi sony warehouse sale nie..since wednesday lagi.End up ..like one big family in two cars we work our way to amcorp during lunch tadi to grab whatever we can.To tell u the truth,this is the last piece.N do u know how i get it?ahaha..lawak.

Thanks to my biggggg family ..we managed to conquer the booth and hushh away all the buyers.agagaga...since semua dah tau my mission is to get one pink camera.

Semua barang pon mcm goreng pisang panas..and the sale is for 3 days!!can u imagine even on the 1st day most of the stuff dah habes..n they said the mp3s is only for 99 bucks.6 gig summore.malangnye that was history by the time we reach there at 1pm today..hishhh malaysian people can really be pyschotic when it comes to sale!

End up i bought one in pink..hee (still smiling) and mizi got one in white..sgggggggggggt puas hati.

Nak dijadikan cerita the credit card machine is not working tengahhari tu..so we booked the cameras by paying 50 bucks and came back after work to grab them..hikhik..

Kesimpulannye today...my total hours of working lebih kurang dlm 4 jam jer.

let see..herm

• 10.30am - Masuk Office
• 10.45 am - Trun smoke
• 11.00 am - Work on Urgent Request
• 12.30 pm - Sytem Down and we rush to amcorp
• 3.00 pm - Sampai Office and start working again...sambil sambil surf website sony coz excited
• 5.00 pm - Trun smoke again
• 6.30 pm - Rush back to Amcorp to get our cameras
• 9.00 pm - Sampai office.clear up reports and pack up our stuff
• 9.30 pm - Head to the curve (Amir's Farewell @ Bubba Shrimp)
• 12.30 pm - Reach home ..hikhikhik.

So kirela brape lame jer yg i buat kerja harinie..memainkan kiterang ni.We work hard and we play like monyets jugaks...that is our motto..ahahaha..yolah...belom kne sound lagi ni.tgkla lepas ni..:P

Pahpe pon im happy...and i dont wanna think about my debts right now...im enjoying my life...gahhhhh

Nitey people..:P

what r u looking for in life oh diana..

I have no fucking answer for that...



But one thing for sure is that Im gonnaa come and watch you dearest EDWARD CULLEN and BELLA SWAN.....(obsesssssssssssss)

Sakit Sakit

Demam yang menyakitkan...

kenapa tah demam kali ni pelik skit..siap sakit sakit badan...

setiap kali batuk or sneeze muscle kat tangan kiri sakit gile sampai takley gerak...

mcm mana sakit pon..terpaksa gagah g ofis...

mcm mana menggigil pon...kene bangun siap pergi kerja...

adoi kenapala takley tgu minggu depan baru demam..

sigh..

counting days..3 more days to go~

Rimas..

Rasa sgt rimas...

Lepas jer balik from sunway ngan alifa.. terus tdo.Mase tuh dah ade tanda tanda tak sehat dah bile rase tekak macam ada kertas pasir.

So when i woke up..rase macam sakit sakit badan...tempreture pon dah smacam.end up me telan 2 active fast.Unfortunately now i cant stop sweating....ape dah jadi ni.dia macam dah kebah ...tapi sik berpeluh yg sgt banyak.Macam rase dlm sauna.

I cant afford to be sick this week.Its the closing week...was thinking to telan another 2 penadol before tdo...but i cant imagine what will happen once i telan bende tuh.adakah aku akan berpeluh mcm org gile lgii...demnnn

sgttt merimasss kan!!

Damaged

I was on mc today..

to malas to go to work.rasa macam alaaa.. tak bankrup pon kot ibm if i didnt go to work for one day kan?i smsed the manager saying that i will be on mc..but no respons.so i take it as OKK...(all managers are the same.malas reply...last time at least i will get an OK reply)

and so i spend my day doing nothing...bangun awal pukul 8 pagi..tgk series yg dejah bagi..then struggle utk pegi clinic and berlakon to get the MC.end up lakonon mmg menjadi since mate gua mmg nampak cum org sakit sebab tgh mengantuk gile tgu turn nak jumpe doctor tuh...TAHNIAH DIANA..nanti leh buat lagi.

My Heart's at a low,

Im so Much to manage

I think u should know, that i've been damaged

herm...i felt like i've been hurt to much nowdays...work..friendship..family...and more

• work-not appriciated.
• friends- whatever..
• family - misereable as ever

Nothings is colorfull like when i was a kid..wait does my childhood days really so bright n colorfull?hmpp..cant remember.

My world is turning upside down..tapi i can still manage...struggling..trying to be human as i can be..pretending it doesnt effect me a single bit...acting numb or dumb as if its all cooll...gah dat easy kan.cume kat dlm jer mcm rollercoaster skit..

you know what?im a good actress tau sbenarnye.eheh i should consider the job if one day i kurusla..prolly i could be famous or kaya skit dari hidup misereable cumni..

sigh..kejap jer dah mlm..but i had a good sleep just now..rasa mcm sgt puas..and tomorrow i havta wear my mask and pretend to be the emotionless person againnn...what a life~

hiccups

kenapala dah tgh tgh malam ni boleh nak tersedu sedan...nak membesar lagik ker..adoiyai.

herms...today,lagi skali ader new task for me at work.It seems like work is getting tougher and tougher...more resposibilities was given to me..yeap pejam celik dah dekat 7 bulan me dekat ibm.Tak sangka kat ibm ni mase berjalan dgn sgt pantaaaass..

tick tock...tickk tock...tick tockkkk...

I was talking to a friend tadi...kan best kalau each country yg i support they give me 1k...coz by now sure my gaji dah jadi 5k.

I was given a new task to handle india billing ..India is the most toughest country beside hong kong...haiyah

so now my responsibilities are as follows..

• Malaysia
• Malaysia IPS
• Brunei
• Vietnam
• India

Selain itu saya juga ade tugasan sampingan which is to backup Hongkong..ridiculous eh?

jgn masuk ICU lagi sudah,,nauzubillah.~

So far i dont mind working..i dont mind the workload given to me..so far im enjoying myself there despise the hectic working hours..sometimes i feel like when im working, i could take my mind off things i dont want to deal in life..certain issue that bothers my mind ...and all i want to do is to make it dissappear..so then i will thank my hectic worklife...

herm am i talking like im a psycho workaholic?agaga...:P

till later...:P

Piece of mind

And so i drop a piece of my mind to a friend that is inneed..

No other intention i had in my mind ..just pure thoughts for the unlucky ones.

How could an angel break your heart..u must be wondering..
How i wish i could give you the answer to all the misereable question u had..
U might not be the perfect one for your angel but u might be the light for the stars out there..

may u find the brightest star to wash away ur misery..so im hoping

****************************************************

Karma

Do not Jeopardize your luck to KARMA.coz Whatever goes around does come back around!!

KARMA (your actions and the effects of your actions.)

I believe in KARMA...specially in relationship.It happens around me quite a few times...

even tho u're my friend,but having an affair with your friends lover is not the wright thing to do.

to you my dearest...pls take this as ur lesson and never repeat this ever again..i will always be there for you- u know who u are-

Blank

Sometimes i wonder..what am i to you?Im NOT hoping for somekind of answer that will flattered me tho..a brief explaination will do.But still im wondering what am i to u.???since the beginning...pls start from the day we got to know each other...

u acted like i have no soul..taking me lightly thinking it is ok to pour every misery of yours to me..hoping ..(nah not the right word chosed) assume (better hmmm)..assuming i will be ok

Blank stares at blank pages...
No easy way to say this....
You mean well, but you make this hard on me.

Convinced me to please you...
Made me think that I need this too...

I learned the hard way,to say the things you want to hear....
My heavy heart sinks deep down under ,And your twisted words, doesnt help either
You are not what I thought you were.
Hello to high and dry

no..no one is allowed to ask wht is this referring to..thanks.

people..human beings..or whatever u call them

for those of u who noticed, its been awhile ..its been awhile since the last entry i've posted here..

its a gloomy friday..i supposed the weather makes it worst..i did had fun tho in the office ...There was only a few of us Most of them is still away for their raya holiday.Taking the oppurtunity to take some rest before the next misereable days of our life...

even tho the speed of doing my work is kinda sloww...but today i learned alot about the actuall behaviour,personality or identity of the people around me.A part of me thot it is very scary...and the other part of me is assuming this is the reality of life that i have not yet learn..

So im taking note on what i have learned today

• i learned how a close friend who did all the good & bad things togather could just turn their back to you and make ur world crumbles.Or you can call this person a betrayer/backstabber/or whatever u want to label them.
• i also learned how a friend could just swiftly fall for your lover and hid the truth from you as well as trying the best to make it sounds tts the right thing to do coz there is nothing they can do if they suddenly fall for each other.
• i learned that there is some people out there which is sooo noble or should i say stupid that can still love you even tho u did the shittiestt thing to them (not me)
• i also learned how some people can be so ungratefull for what they have but still aching to look for more...
• i've learned on how a person could look so innocent yet the reality they r the most cruel person alive.
• i learned about how people can fall for their own gender and they are not as gross i what i imagined before (no im not turning into a gay pls).
• i learned gays can be a good friend rather the the straight ones.
• i also learned that there is someone out there which is almost always unlucky with their relationship (pity)

i know i have more of this...but my eyes are too tired.i can barely open them...probably i should continue this later..

till then..gdnite

NUMB

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
nope..i wont

What color shirt are you wearing?
my gold baju kurung from work

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
no reason at all..not feeling like it either.

Who was the last person that texted you?
someone...someone who always looking for me when they r in deep shit and hopingfor me to be the listner i used to be..

What are you craving for now?
in this state of mind...nothing~

Is there one person who can make you feel better no matter what?
not sure if i have one..

Last person you hugged?
cant remember..

What were you doing at 2:00 am?
sleeping safe n sound

Have you cried today?
nope..

What did you do today?
learning alot about the truth around me....lots of em'

What bed did you sleep in last night?
my dearie bed

Are you currently frustrated with a girl/guy?
yeah...both girl and guy

Ever talked to someone who was high?
high..yeah if you labelled crazy n frustrated person as high

When is the next time you will see your grandma?
tomorrow morning once i wake up.

Have you kissed or hugged someone yesterday?
cant remember...

Are you a dumb blonde?
nope..im not

Will you be married in the next two years?
i have no idea..probably not..

Have you ever wanted someone you thought that you couldnt have?
i used to..but i believe not anymore

How are you feeling today?
confius and frustrated

Do you like your name?
i have no problem with it

Are you happy at the moment?
not really

What were you doing at 10:00pm last night?
out with aliza

Last person who drove you somewhere(besides your parents)?
ely probably..

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can talk to?
yeah..i have a few of them

Are you crazy?
no..not really

How was this past week been for you?
hectic

Last thing you drank?
a&w rootbeer

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
yeah...

Could you ever forgive a cheater?
i might not...coz im no longer the old diana

Where do you badly wanna go now ?
somewhere high..hills maybe..cold n high

Lastly?
watever..

Selamat Hari Raya..

im currently waiting for my system to be up again in like 10 minutes time...

so im taking this oppurtunity to wish everyone of you ..

Happy Eid Mubarak.Maaf Zahir Batin from the bottom of my heart.
May u have a wonderful celebration with your love ones...

Sahur @Asia Cafe

ceritera sahur

al kisah...im currently waiting for alifa 2 pick me up for sahur ...sahur habesla kol 2 pagi...

i got home around 11 plus tadi...stret tertdo..tapi petang tadi are'e ajak pegi sahur ramai ramai mlm ni...dgn nunu, ozai,alifa and raie.

at first mcm fikir..eh giler ker mlm ni.esok kerja kot......

tapi mcm rindu plaks zaman2 giler cumni.so i decided to join them...herm mcm tak caye jer.tadi biler terjaga around 1 something rase pelik pelik cum nak muntah.yerla baru jer tertdo n penat giler.

suddenly me teringat..the last i had this feeling was wayyyyyyyyyyy back zaman mmu.Mase zaman suke merayap malam duluuh and also zaman kne hanta assigment where i have like 10 mins to sleep before submission.rase cum loya loya mase terbgn.

erm tak sangka..that was wayyy pas zaman muda mudi.now life is more serious.and..sometimes, iwish i could turn back time~.....

Raya..raya..rayaa

I got another Kad rayaaa..yeyeyy

Kad tv3...no nopee alifa...but from kak wawa.Tak caye kan....?

Nak dijadikan cerita..tadi beriye nak balik awal, so i called cab!tgh tgu tgu cab skali ader org lalu..pandang smacam.pastuh dia tgur..ha knal lagi tak ni?ehhh rupenye abg nizam.raiee ingat tak nizam cameraman baju pink dulu tuh.Ha jumpe dia depan tuh.siap beborak borak semua.

Harituh kak wawa kata ntv nak pindah sri pentas...end up semua dah pindah dahsini lastr week.Unfortunately nizam dah tender resignation and harini last day dia..so naseb baik sempat jumper.He is going abroad to continue study.X sempatla jumpe skali lagi kat wedding efa..

Nizam rajen jugak call from ntv dulu..last i talk to him mase mlm wedding kak syerin tuh.Anyhoooo yg klaka tuh dia leh ckp dari jauh nampak cum kenal...tapiiiiii dulu cum kecikkkk skang dah lain.........waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa mmmg betollaaa pon kan.jauh sgt berbezaaa zaman kerja ntv dulu.demn!!Lepas tu terus call kak wawa...tak sangka dia dah send kad raya.

N nowwwwww i have to move my big but and send all the kad raya!!!mlm ni jugak kne tulis semuaa...hiyahhh hiyahhh!!

Indefinately

We were as one babe..
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So Im letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you will always be my baby
And we will linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're ever gonna shake me
Oh darling..cause you will always be my baby

currently this song is on my playlist and playing for 100 times today.walaupon ni baru pukul 12 noon.Even the words seems to be stuck in my head...u'll alwiz part of me,im part of u indefiantely..alalala

was thingking of going back early today..malas sudah mau stayback.

raya is around the corner..card raya dah beli tapi tak hanta lagi..sigh...malashhh sungguh!

aaaaaaaaaa lapa..n tgh merancang nak mkn tghhari ngan alifa..demn demnn demnnn lapaaa..:|

Later

she's no longer available..

Yeap..that gurl,on my right is no longer available people...she's getting engaged this November and soon married to Mr.Tariq Mohd Noh..

Hebatss...

Another one being scrap off the bachelor's list...Congrats ADrebonding..Fewit tgkla rambut rebonding baru dia tuh..:P

Run Forrest Run!!

So i have to stop Forrest from running away...coz its time for buke puasa

Today is the Hsbc ex-colleagues day for get togather..burp.so kenyang...

i've been craving for burgers this few days...sik terbyg chillis jerh.end up makan kat "Bubba Gump"

saya cukup puas hati...

second day in a row at the curve...boleh tahan sengal jugaks.

Too tired to blog...gnitee.

p/s : raie..tahniah kreta baru.x sabar nak naik esok..:D

Posto posto

Someone send me card raaya today.............im so loving it!!! My very 1st card raya this year.thxs to you.saya sgt excited bile dapat card raya.u knoe who u r.sayang kamu ahhh...

gnite sweetlove

Lucky~

1.The way to win your heart?
say that u love me..LOL.nah just show me that u really care and i will definately fall for all your tricks.

2.What did you do last night?
had my buka puasa with IBMers and after that head straight home to continue my dream of edward n bella

3.One song that's meaningful to you?
fall for you-secondhand serenade

4.Do you drink milk straight from thecarton?
i dont drink milk thank you~

5.How long is your hair?
shoulder lenght..i hate my hairla.gotta do something with it tomorrow!

6.Do you like Batman?
i dont like superheroes...

7.Who was the last person who told you they loved you?
alifa..she called me sayang..ahaha sayang means love :P

8.Addicted to anything?
addicted to edward cullen n bella swan..drooling

9.Do you like anyone now?
edward cullen

10.When was the last time you sang outloud?
nowww..lucky im in love with my bestfriend.lucky to have been where i have been..alalala

11.What did you have for breakfast?
sahur you mean...none

12.Is your birthday on a holiday?
yeah ...november is a school holiday as far as i can remember.

13.What instant messaging service doyou use?
sametime..ym

14.Can you cook?
i can cookk...yaaaaa honestly i cannnn!!!not convincing enough heh?

15.Did you have a nap today?
yeah i did...owhh come on im on my leave for god sake.you dont expect me to work from home and later decide to go to the office and finish up the stuff dont you?...owh ya i did that today.pathetic

16.What was the reason you got introuble last?
cant remember weh..coz i often got into trouble...drama is my middle name i tell u.

17.What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?'
jeanss..n baju kurung..ekeke

18.When is your birthday?
november 12!!set ur reminder people

19.Do you swear a lot?
nahh i dont..but i curseee demn fucking alot

20.Where did you get the shirt(s)you're wearing?
mark n spencer..

21.Do you have any regrets?
not sure...i might have some i guess.just cudnt think of any now

22.What was your first alcoholic drink?
ribena mobile..ihiks

23.What color are your favorite shoes?
hermm..could it be white?nah not sure.i have lots of white shoes nowdays.

24.Who would you like to see right now?
no one particular..

25.Are you a social or antisocialperson?
antisocialll...ehehe

26.Ever been in love?
.........beep......

27.Ever had braces?
heee nope..and not planning for any

28.Who was the first person to reallybreak your heart?
who ehh?

29.What do you wear to bed?
baju tdur ofcoz

30.Who was the last person todisappoint you?
someonela...not worth mentioning

31.Do you trust people?
trying not to anymore...

32.Who was the first person you talkedto today?
adoi..first ker?cant remember la..salambah kot.he called me this morning

33.who was the 2nd person talked to you last night??
second..wht the hack.mane nak ingat second ker third ker..

34.Who was the first person to text youtoday?
salambah..a.k.a khairi

35.What was the first thing you didthis morning?
switch on my thinkpad..life is always about work people..ngee:D

Me Amor'

Thee Edward & Bella

Pre-Raya Celebration..

Pre-Raya celebration with IBMers..

Actually we had our buke puasa outing today..dekat KGPA,Mont Kiara.

Why we call it Pre-raya?coz semua di atas telah confirm tidak boleh raya this year.So we decided to get some raya mood before semua nanges malam ngan pagi raya kerja kat IBM tower ...

Lets introduce them to u people..

1st couple is Amir & partner.Amir is my workstation mate.we shared most of the things togather..specially ciggies and coins..:))

2nd Couple is Salam (Khairi) & partner Nisa.Yes salam..im sure u guys tau who salam is..ehehee

3rd Couple is Yan & Hubby.Yan just join our team dlm 3 minggu cumtuh.Before this dia support US and work grave yard shift.Now dia kate lagi gile bila join APCC.She label us as chempiangs coz we act like a bunch of weirdo..

Sorang lagi tiada dlm gamba is Mizi.

Actually, we had so much fun tonight.We actually laugh more then we eat.Sampai balik rumah dah tak boleh blah..pening sampai kne mandi..

Most of the picture is with yan's hubby.Banyak sgt gamba sampai i sendri cuak nak tgk.Semua prangai beruk derang capture.Shitss..

Wanna know One secret?There were 9 of us today...but we only paid for 8.Habeslaaa...LOL!!

Dumb!

U are getting on my nerve..

sometimes i just wonder..
r u playing dumb..
or r u just plain dumb..
or mmg u r just totally dumb!

u annoyed me!

so buzz of..

Obsession...

My Obsession...

And i wish someday for Edward of my own like Bella does..

Me Bella~

"If you had a face,Or a name.I would like you to be Edward.And the heavenly body to match with.With penetrating molten topaz eyes too.So deep,I'll drown in those two orbs whenever I caught your eyes.Truly!

And I,I would be Bella,your one and only mortal Bella.Sigh!But I will never ever give you dear one anyone or anything to be compromise to.You are but mine.You are without vivid image.You are my only angel."..quoted

Twilight..im gonna get you..

Lil bit of Q's and A's

1-What would you like to say to the second person in your tops?
Mishh ya babe…

2-What was the last reason you were mad?
Insensitive wasted bunch…

3-Where is your cell phone?
Somewhere on the bed

4-Where do you want to go?
MPH.. tomorrow ..As early as I could to get my TWILIGHT..

5-What time did you go to sleep last night?
Herm.. around 1 am I guess…

6-What woke you up today?
My mom..coz its time for work..sigh~

7-The person you have feelings for shows up at your house, what do you do?
Clueless,speechless..and all the less u could think of.

8-What did you do last weekend?
Me?cant remember sorry..

9-Have you ever been given an engagement ring?
Not even in my dream

10-Have you done anything embarrassing lately?
Nah..none that i can think of..hihi

11-Dark hair or light hair in the opposite sex?
Dark hair it is!

12-Do you have a Facebook?
Yeah I do..so what?

13-Are you currently frustrated with a girl?
Whatever~…

14-Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
No one in particular..

15-Do you miss anyone?
Yeap my baby nephew…

16-How is your hair right now?
Messy bebeeeh…

17-What is tomorrow?
Tomorrow is the day for me to pamper myself yeah!

18-Do you wear makeup?
Yeah…

19-What are you doing later?
Going to bed and wake up again at 4 for sahur…

20-Have you ever kissed anyone named Matthew?
Mathew Lawrence …yeah in my dream...ahahaha NOT!

21-Where was your default picture taken?
What default picha?haaa friendster survey kan..so my default picture was taken in IBM

22-Last time you walked further than a block?
Herm my daily exercise..walking to ou ..through one world hotel and then to Ibm tower..

23-Name someone that made you laugh today?
My wacky officemates

24-When was the last time you saw number 1 on your top friends?
Sobs..its been awhile..but she called me last night :)

25-If you could move somewhere else, where would it be?
Overseas…me always dreaming of moving abroad.where no one knows me..why?no idea why..

26-Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Maded dearest..

27-Do you believe ex's can be friends?
No comment beybeh…ur choice!

28-Do you prefer to call or text?
Nowadays..call!

29-Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Sometimes…but for me it will only be worth if u and ur partner is honest towards each other.So don’t blame them if you urself doing things behind their back..

note this baby... karma work both ways..go figure!

30-Are you happy today?
Kind of..i have good time in the office..and good time talking to raie tonight..as the matter of fact every night when I talk to her…:D goodnight raie :P

Timeless..

Mizi showed me this video tadi mase dekat office..disebabkan i dok merapu and takder kerja..so dia melayan i.

vidoe ni sgt sedehh ok..mak nanges nyah tgk...:(( (sorry terlebeh kwn ngan nyah bahse takley tukar..)

korang kne tgk part 1 dulu baru tgk part 2 ok..no cheating..

Ok part one...



Now part two...




Dah tgk dah?kalau tak paham pendek umor ...heheeee:D

Just to let u know..this is not a soundtrack from any movie or series...tapi video clip sang penyanyi.Lebeh kurang macam clips kiss zaman kite alpha kat mmu dulula..But this guy buat 2 parts.

adoi tapi naperla org korea kne comel..adoii..drooling~

So enjoy..~

Missing the good old days~

Was browsing thru old conversation..and suddenly i miss the Good Old Days..

yeah this happen frequently i notice.How i wish i could get over things..but sigh~ lingering in the past is my hobby i guess..

Everyone is moving on with their life..mengejar cita cita..achieving higher salary..building up reputation..moving up higher and being more successfull in life..but me?

hermm me....
im..
herm im always deep in my own thots..going nowhere but here.
im lost..going out of the way..
lost my track..
i've lost my track..
no longer running towards my dreams..the dream i have with me since i was small..
to be someone i dreamt of becoming..
instead..im just following the flow..
grabbing watever chance i have infront of me..(even tho it doesnt make any sense at all)
without putting much effort..
im doing things just to survive..
no longer for wat i really want..

is that how life suppose to be?

i felt like..erm..only kids r allowed to dream of having a dream
while the adults will put the dreams aside and continue living life..

or issit just me and my thots~...?????