Sakit Sakit

Demam yang menyakitkan...

kenapa tah demam kali ni pelik skit..siap sakit sakit badan...

setiap kali batuk or sneeze muscle kat tangan kiri sakit gile sampai takley gerak...

mcm mana sakit pon..terpaksa gagah g ofis...

mcm mana menggigil pon...kene bangun siap pergi kerja...

adoi kenapala takley tgu minggu depan baru demam..

sigh..

counting days..3 more days to go~

Rimas..

Rasa sgt rimas...

Lepas jer balik from sunway ngan alifa.. terus tdo.Mase tuh dah ade tanda tanda tak sehat dah bile rase tekak macam ada kertas pasir.

So when i woke up..rase macam sakit sakit badan...tempreture pon dah smacam.end up me telan 2 active fast.Unfortunately now i cant stop sweating....ape dah jadi ni.dia macam dah kebah ...tapi sik berpeluh yg sgt banyak.Macam rase dlm sauna.

I cant afford to be sick this week.Its the closing week...was thinking to telan another 2 penadol before tdo...but i cant imagine what will happen once i telan bende tuh.adakah aku akan berpeluh mcm org gile lgii...demnnn

sgttt merimasss kan!!

Damaged

I was on mc today..

to malas to go to work.rasa macam alaaa.. tak bankrup pon kot ibm if i didnt go to work for one day kan?i smsed the manager saying that i will be on mc..but no respons.so i take it as OKK...(all managers are the same.malas reply...last time at least i will get an OK reply)

and so i spend my day doing nothing...bangun awal pukul 8 pagi..tgk series yg dejah bagi..then struggle utk pegi clinic and berlakon to get the MC.end up lakonon mmg menjadi since mate gua mmg nampak cum org sakit sebab tgh mengantuk gile tgu turn nak jumpe doctor tuh...TAHNIAH DIANA..nanti leh buat lagi.

My Heart's at a low,

Im so Much to manage

I think u should know, that i've been damaged

herm...i felt like i've been hurt to much nowdays...work..friendship..family...and more

• work-not appriciated.
• friends- whatever..
• family - misereable as ever

Nothings is colorfull like when i was a kid..wait does my childhood days really so bright n colorfull?hmpp..cant remember.

My world is turning upside down..tapi i can still manage...struggling..trying to be human as i can be..pretending it doesnt effect me a single bit...acting numb or dumb as if its all cooll...gah dat easy kan.cume kat dlm jer mcm rollercoaster skit..

you know what?im a good actress tau sbenarnye.eheh i should consider the job if one day i kurusla..prolly i could be famous or kaya skit dari hidup misereable cumni..

sigh..kejap jer dah mlm..but i had a good sleep just now..rasa mcm sgt puas..and tomorrow i havta wear my mask and pretend to be the emotionless person againnn...what a life~

hiccups

kenapala dah tgh tgh malam ni boleh nak tersedu sedan...nak membesar lagik ker..adoiyai.

herms...today,lagi skali ader new task for me at work.It seems like work is getting tougher and tougher...more resposibilities was given to me..yeap pejam celik dah dekat 7 bulan me dekat ibm.Tak sangka kat ibm ni mase berjalan dgn sgt pantaaaass..

tick tock...tickk tock...tick tockkkk...

I was talking to a friend tadi...kan best kalau each country yg i support they give me 1k...coz by now sure my gaji dah jadi 5k.

I was given a new task to handle india billing ..India is the most toughest country beside hong kong...haiyah

so now my responsibilities are as follows..

• Malaysia
• Malaysia IPS
• Brunei
• Vietnam
• India

Selain itu saya juga ade tugasan sampingan which is to backup Hongkong..ridiculous eh?

jgn masuk ICU lagi sudah,,nauzubillah.~

So far i dont mind working..i dont mind the workload given to me..so far im enjoying myself there despise the hectic working hours..sometimes i feel like when im working, i could take my mind off things i dont want to deal in life..certain issue that bothers my mind ...and all i want to do is to make it dissappear..so then i will thank my hectic worklife...

herm am i talking like im a psycho workaholic?agaga...:P

till later...:P

Piece of mind

And so i drop a piece of my mind to a friend that is inneed..

No other intention i had in my mind ..just pure thoughts for the unlucky ones.

How could an angel break your heart..u must be wondering..
How i wish i could give you the answer to all the misereable question u had..
U might not be the perfect one for your angel but u might be the light for the stars out there..

may u find the brightest star to wash away ur misery..so im hoping

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Karma

Do not Jeopardize your luck to KARMA.coz Whatever goes around does come back around!!

KARMA (your actions and the effects of your actions.)

I believe in KARMA...specially in relationship.It happens around me quite a few times...

even tho u're my friend,but having an affair with your friends lover is not the wright thing to do.

to you my dearest...pls take this as ur lesson and never repeat this ever again..i will always be there for you- u know who u are-

Blank

Sometimes i wonder..what am i to you?Im NOT hoping for somekind of answer that will flattered me tho..a brief explaination will do.But still im wondering what am i to u.???since the beginning...pls start from the day we got to know each other...

u acted like i have no soul..taking me lightly thinking it is ok to pour every misery of yours to me..hoping ..(nah not the right word chosed) assume (better hmmm)..assuming i will be ok

Blank stares at blank pages...
No easy way to say this....
You mean well, but you make this hard on me.

Convinced me to please you...
Made me think that I need this too...

I learned the hard way,to say the things you want to hear....
My heavy heart sinks deep down under ,And your twisted words, doesnt help either
You are not what I thought you were.
Hello to high and dry

no..no one is allowed to ask wht is this referring to..thanks.

people..human beings..or whatever u call them

for those of u who noticed, its been awhile ..its been awhile since the last entry i've posted here..

its a gloomy friday..i supposed the weather makes it worst..i did had fun tho in the office ...There was only a few of us Most of them is still away for their raya holiday.Taking the oppurtunity to take some rest before the next misereable days of our life...

even tho the speed of doing my work is kinda sloww...but today i learned alot about the actuall behaviour,personality or identity of the people around me.A part of me thot it is very scary...and the other part of me is assuming this is the reality of life that i have not yet learn..

So im taking note on what i have learned today

• i learned how a close friend who did all the good & bad things togather could just turn their back to you and make ur world crumbles.Or you can call this person a betrayer/backstabber/or whatever u want to label them.
• i also learned how a friend could just swiftly fall for your lover and hid the truth from you as well as trying the best to make it sounds tts the right thing to do coz there is nothing they can do if they suddenly fall for each other.
• i learned that there is some people out there which is sooo noble or should i say stupid that can still love you even tho u did the shittiestt thing to them (not me)
• i also learned how some people can be so ungratefull for what they have but still aching to look for more...
• i've learned on how a person could look so innocent yet the reality they r the most cruel person alive.
• i learned about how people can fall for their own gender and they are not as gross i what i imagined before (no im not turning into a gay pls).
• i learned gays can be a good friend rather the the straight ones.
• i also learned that there is someone out there which is almost always unlucky with their relationship (pity)

i know i have more of this...but my eyes are too tired.i can barely open them...probably i should continue this later..

till then..gdnite

NUMB

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
nope..i wont

What color shirt are you wearing?
my gold baju kurung from work

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
no reason at all..not feeling like it either.

Who was the last person that texted you?
someone...someone who always looking for me when they r in deep shit and hopingfor me to be the listner i used to be..

What are you craving for now?
in this state of mind...nothing~

Is there one person who can make you feel better no matter what?
not sure if i have one..

Last person you hugged?
cant remember..

What were you doing at 2:00 am?
sleeping safe n sound

Have you cried today?
nope..

What did you do today?
learning alot about the truth around me....lots of em'

What bed did you sleep in last night?
my dearie bed

Are you currently frustrated with a girl/guy?
yeah...both girl and guy

Ever talked to someone who was high?
high..yeah if you labelled crazy n frustrated person as high

When is the next time you will see your grandma?
tomorrow morning once i wake up.

Have you kissed or hugged someone yesterday?
cant remember...

Are you a dumb blonde?
nope..im not

Will you be married in the next two years?
i have no idea..probably not..

Have you ever wanted someone you thought that you couldnt have?
i used to..but i believe not anymore

How are you feeling today?
confius and frustrated

Do you like your name?
i have no problem with it

Are you happy at the moment?
not really

What were you doing at 10:00pm last night?
out with aliza

Last person who drove you somewhere(besides your parents)?
ely probably..

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can talk to?
yeah..i have a few of them

Are you crazy?
no..not really

How was this past week been for you?
hectic

Last thing you drank?
a&w rootbeer

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
yeah...

Could you ever forgive a cheater?
i might not...coz im no longer the old diana

Where do you badly wanna go now ?
somewhere high..hills maybe..cold n high

Lastly?
watever..